Kaitlyn and I in front of our house, shortly after we moved in. Many of you may know that my house recently sold. It is just a house, but it represents so much more for Kaitlyn and I. It was our dream home. It was a home that represented all the hard work that we had put in to get to a great place financially. It was a hard decision to choose to sell and honestly I don't know what our future looks like, but I know most certainly it doesn't include this house. We are downsizing, simplifying and choosing a future of love, travel, adventure and entrepreneurship over staying in a house that no longer fits us or feels like home. This house represents a different life we used to live. A life full of expectations of a happy and "normal" future. This was supposed to be the house Darren and I lived in when we had to send Kaitlyn, our only child, to college. It was supposed to be the house where we celebrated Christmases, birthdays, anniversaries, graduations and weddings. We would have conversations with Kaitlyn about boys, dating and where she would go to college in this house. Darren and I would spend sleepless nights here worrying about where she was and why she missed her curfew. We would have my grand babies sleepover in this house. We would put a swing set in the backyard and have the grand kids play with the coolest grandparents ever. Obviously, I've thought a lot about this planned future in this house that was supposed to be our home for many years. I remember telling Darren when we bought this house that we better love it because I never wanted to move again. I absolutely hate moving, uprooting our life, decorating, figuring out where things should go and starting again. I told Kaitlyn that our next move would be to a retirement community on the beach somewhere, so she must be prepared to visit her parents there. Now, here I am only a little over two years later making the often misunderstood decision to move forward and sell this house. I’m also embarking on making the largest decision I have ever made without Darren. I don’t want to mess up. I don’t want to make a mistake. I don't have to do it. I can stay here, but yet I know it's time. I felt God compelling me long ago, but pride and fear kept me here. Now, with an offer accepted on a new place (after more than a few setbacks, questions and tears), we are setting out on a scary and very different adventure. It will be hard. It will be emotional and it will be a huge adjustment from here to there, but I know we are doing the right thing. We are moving forward. We are stepping with faith into an uncertain future. We are leaving the comfortable for the unknown. I'm always reminding myself that God doesn't call us to be comfortable and that we often have to take these hard steps to see what he has in store for us. I know God isn't done with Kaitlyn and I yet. We will make new memories and we have hope for an incredible future. It won't hold this house, but it will hold possibilities, love, laughter, adventure, and a place to call home on this incredible journey of life. We step forward reminded that a house is just a house, but we can make a home wherever we go.
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Heather
9/25/2017 08:52:38 am
Oh, I always love your posts and they always leave my in tears!! You are such an encouragement!! While there will be those who do not understand or agree with your decision, knowing you are walking in the will of the Father is so much more important!! I pray that you feel His Presence, His Peace, His Powerful Reassurance of His Love, and His Grace in the coming days in a new and fresh way!!! Blessings on you my friend!
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Denise Schroder
9/25/2017 01:25:26 pm
We have been blessed to go on the journey with you. We have seen you grow and stretch yourself and your perspective so much! God is in control and He is good all the time!
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