Top Left: Darren & Amy at Darren's 40th Star Wars Birthday Party. Top Right: Darren & Kaitlyn on Father's Day 4 years ago. Bottom: Darren teaching and following his passion. I used to be passionate, outspoken, unafraid to share and speak my mind, even when my views and priorities weren't directly in line with those closest to me. When and why did this change? Why did I suddenly care so much about being different? Why did I care if I wasn't a cookie cutter version of those closest to me? When did I lose my passion? Why did I lose my passion? I have lots of excuses and reasons that justify this loss and make it seem okay and dare I say it, "normal." None of these are okay! I was not made to fit a mold, fit in or be less than God created me to be. I was made to stand out, stand up for my beliefs and be passionate about what God has laid on my heart. Even in this journey of widowhood, where I feel so passionate about sharing and feeding into other people from my hurt, I hesitate. I stop and ask should I? Is this the right thing to share? Will people take this wrong? Will they think I'm exploiting my journey so people feel sorry me? Then I stop, feel convicted and reminded of the things that I'm passionate about. Those things that God has put on my heart and I trust in His calling and leading on me. The Bible tells us that we are "fearfully and wonderfully made." It does not say we are all made alike, for the same purpose or the same set of passions. If we all did the same job, hobby, exercise etc., how much fun would that be? But, dare I push this a step further? If we all were passionate about the same causes and people groups, who would be getting missed? God did not give you the same passions and calling as me and you must follow those. We all must begin to reach out to those that God has called us to help, without apology and without worrying about what others think. Who could you be helping today? I pray that you, like me, can stop worrying about upsetting others with our convictions. You and I can stop worrying about what people think of us. We need to look into our hearts and realize that we are all placed on this earth for a reason and for a short time, to be everything God has called us to be. I'll end by sharing about my favorite person and what he taught me in his short time on this earth. Darren was a writer and an amazing one at that. He could make even a real estate story come to life in ways most writers dream about. However, he found out that God had given him a greater passion to reach people with his writing about God. He felt so passionate about this that he left a very good job to pursue a job in the ministry. To the outside world, it didn't make sense and no it wasn't easy and honestly it was some of the toughest years in our family, but I wouldn't trade those 4 years he had of pursuing his passion for anything. He touched people with his words, he overcame a fear of speaking in public and helped lead hundreds through finding their God given purpose, people came to know God because of his writing, he changed into an even more amazing father and husband, all because he followed his passions and believed God had created him for something more. Be unapologetically you today. Don't be afraid to follow the passions that God has put on your heart. Stand up for those people groups that you know God wants you to. I promise you that even though it may not be easy and other people may not understand, at the end of your life, you will not regret following your calling and believing in those things you are passionate about.
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